Sunday, November 19, 2017

How does it feel?

So, it's been a while. I can't believe it's already going to be December soon. Hell, it's going to be my birthday. I completely forgot tbh. I've been busy with work, and only have Sundays off at the moment so I just look forward to Sundays. And I'm counting the days when I have my weekends again.

With it being autumn, I've noticed that I keep playing Citizen. It's been very fitting for my mood lately. Also, Trophy Eyes. Lately, I've just been listening to the same music and not interested in finding anything new.

I've recently picked up an old hobby of mine which is writing. And it is actually going pretty well. I am writing a story for an app and my story is actually getting many reads. I am so surprised but so happy. The last time I wrote anything was in junior high school so I'm amazed I can still write something lol.

Also, I just booked my ticket back to the states. I have already decided this a while ago, but I'm heading back to the states. I don't know if I'm staying there, but I need my sisters. I miss them. So much has changed since I've been gone. I need to be there for them, especially my younger sister. Everything is changing. And I realized I can't be away from my sisters when these big changes are happening. I don't want to be away from them.

And I'm ready for a new chapter of my life. I love Japan with all my heart, and I'm going to miss it like crazy when I leave. But I think I'm ready to leave, ready to figure out what I want to do next.

I know leaving now will leave me with fond memories. So much has happened here, and thinking about it tugs at my heart. I was so happy here and it changed my life so much. I am so grateful for my life here. I met amazing people, and had amazing experiences. I don't know if I'll ever come back, but as of now I'm going to enjoy the last few months I have here.