Saturday, February 27, 2016

I'll paint you a picture, with words I miss her.

Yesterday I went to Neck Deep, State Champs and Knuckle Puck. It was a really good show. State Champs is amazing live, the energy and the vocalist voice. It got me pumped up for Neck Deep. Neck Deep is one of my favorite bands so I was so stoked to see them live.

I had so much fun, and was on the floor dancing and singing along to all the words of every song. They played all the songs I wanted, and was super surprised they played Serpents. But I'm super happy they played 'Over and Over', Kali Ma, Lime St. and of course, Part of Me. Of course all the songs they played made me happy but those songs are my absolute favorites.

This was my last concert in California and I was so happy it was Neck Deep.
1 month and 2 days till Japan.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Little Work Reunion.

Yesterday I was reunited with my old cashier/receptionist co-workers. I hang out with my friend Tina often, but we hadn't had a chance to reunite with our other co-workers. It was nice to catch up, and hanging out with all of us together made me miss work. But then they were telling us how the place is still a shit hole so we're glad we left lol. It was a good night, we stayed out pretty late just talking. We hope we can do this again before I leave.

1 month and 6 days.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Good company, good music.

Sunday, February 14th, 2016

We ate at Urth Caffe for breakfast, which is apparently an extremely well-known place. I got green tea boba and a granola bowl. I was craving something light. After having breakfast we headed back to Orange County. I fell asleep in the car and as soon as we got back to Jenny's place, I knocked out. Jenny stayed up with 'Good' Guy and Ting Ting (a chill girl friend).

It was late afternoon/evening and turns out everyone wanted to go out to LA again because Ting Ting could get us into a club where a well-known DJ would be playing, his name was Dash Berlin.

I'm not much of a techno fan, I don't know squat about any of the genres but they all really wanted to go, it was a big deal. I was so tired from the other outings but after some convincing I'd decided to tag along. It would be our last day together anyways.

Because Ting Ting knew someone, we were able to get free drinks, bottle service, and sit in the VIP area. It was nice because no creepers, and just chillin with friends and listening to music. Dash apparently plays trance, which I liked all the songs he played so I concluded I like trance.

It was a really fun night, and I actually got buzzed for the first time in a while. Champagne my loves, it does the job much better than hard liquor in my opinion.

So Valentine's Day? Was flippin' amazing. I'm so super happy I went out and I had the most fun that day. Good company, good music. It was my best Valentine's Day ever.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

A day in LA.

Saturday, February 13th, 2016

One of Jenny's roommate's, 'Good Guy' was going out to LA and invited us so we decided to go because Jenny didn't want to stay home. Apparently there was going to be this thing for photographers to shoot.

We met at 'Good Guy's' friend's place. He was a photographer, and had a lot of snapbacks. The other guy was a Chinese who lived in Germany most of his life, which is pretty cool. Anyways, we all met and chilled at Snapback's place. Eventually he headed out to LA where a car meet was going to be happening.

It was pretty cool, though it was small. Free things + free tacos made it all the better. After checking out the car meet we headed back to Snapback's place where we met other people, a whole lot of other people and his roommate.

We went to go eat Korean bbq in Koreatown and it was delicious. We met another friend of Snapback's who was half Colombian and Asian (forgot what kind). He was pretty nice, and everyone graduated from UCI as well.

After KBBQ, Snapback had to do some photography at a club called Lure. I didn't feel like clubbing AT ALL. Especially since we went the night before. But I took one for the team, big mistake.

It was horrible. The whole time at the club sucked so bad. Guys trying to touch you, bad music, and expensive drinks. No, thank you. I was happy to leave the club. At least I saw LMFAO perform and didn't have to pay a cover, but it was not worth it.

We went back to Snapback's place and just chilled. Some drank some more but me and Snapback just smoked and chilled. We ended up staying over at his place and decided to head back to Orange County in the morning.

Overall, it was a pretty good day besides the clubbing. The chillin' and smoking with Snapback made it better.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Night in Newport.

Friday, February 12th, 2016

I went out to Orange County for the last time to see some of my other friends. Jenny was the main one, since I visited Tia plenty of times before. My mom doesn't like me going out to Orange County so I had to say goodbye this time. Part of me hopes I can still go back but I really doubt it.

So, I spent the weekend with Jenny. It was fun. I got to meet her roommates and we went out together. One of our friend's was djing at Sutra a club in Newport so we decided to go. It was also nice because we could get in with no entrance fee and since he was djing we got free bottle service.

Jenny got tipsy pretty quickly so I was mostly taking care of her and chatting with others. I don't really like clubbing anymore but because we got to be in the VIP area and just sit and chill, I really enjoyed it. I met several new people and just talked away while enjoying the music.

It was a good night.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

in that moment, we were infinite.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

I went to LA with my sisters to go to a museum that just opened recently called "The Broad." I was super excited because it had Yayoi Kusama's exhibit of the Infitiy Mirrored Room. I had been wanting to see this ever since I cam across it on Tumblr and I'm so happy I was able to.

The rest of the museum was great too. My older sister isn't into modern art but she was able to have fun and me and my little sister would poke fun to make it more interesting for her.

It was a great day, me and my sisters haven't had a day out forever. This was actually my late birthday present, this was what I originally wanted to do but it was too last minute.

We also went to the Grand Central Marketplace where there was so much to eat. I wanted to eat at Eggslut because it's so well-known but the wait was too long so me and my older sister got Thai while my little sis got pizza. It was so good.

Happy very be-lated birthday to me!

Monday, February 8, 2016

girly things.

January 18th, 2016
Photographer: Alysha Nett

Alysha looked at my portfolio and saw that it was mostly urban and street,
so she wanted to add some girly things to my portfolio.

I'll admit, I was a bit uncomfortable with some of the looks,
mostly the feathered robe but it was cool to do something different.

My favorite look and my favorite outcome of the shoot was the bathtub one.
Probably because it's more similar to the things I already do.

Overall, I loved shooting with her and loved the outcome.
I'm definitely going to shoot with her again when I come back to California to visit.

1 month and 21 days.

Monday, February 1, 2016

Hello February.

Hello loves!
It's the lovely month of February and there's so many things to look forward to.

Lately, things have been up and down constantly with my parents. At the moment they are okay, and I hope it stays that way. Ever since the shoot with Alysha, I've had several photographers wanting to shoot with me, but unfortunately because of my strict parents this makes it nearly impossible to shoot.

I was just talking about this with Lyy, I really enjoy my life in California and I've been having so many modeling opportunities coming my way that if I wanted to pursue it, ideally staying in California would be best. However, because of my parents, I can't because they go against everything I really want such as my tattoos, stretched ears, my modeling, going out with friends (unless they met them), that I could never do what I really want here.

Why not move out? That would be nice. But there's several reasons why that wouldn't work which I don't care to write them out at the moment but the main one being that it's not enough space. Even with me moving out, if I still live in Southern California it will be hard for them to let go.

Moving to the other side of the world? It forces them to let go. Just gotta rip it off like a bandaid.

I need some space, okay a bit more than some, more like a lot. I'm hoping to spend some time in Japan, pay some of my loans, get my tattoos, and travel. I want to have my space, have my freedom again, and just grow as a person on my own. I just want to live my own life, regardless of my parent's good intentions.

If I could do some modeling on the side, cool. If not, it's not a big deal. I never thought about doing modeling seriously until more recently when photographers were telling me I should. I always saw it as a hobby, something for fun, something to make me feel empowered and confident. We'll see, I'm sure my modeling will probably stop when I go to Japan tbh.

In any case, I'm looking forward towards the future. And, as of now, things are alright. I'm spending time with my family and trying to make the most of it and not fuck things up before I leave.

In the meantime, I have some things to looking forward to, some outings with friends, concerts, and an art exhibit I've been wanting to see for a while. Hopefully everyone has a lovely month!

1 month and 28 days.