Wednesday, December 30, 2015

end of the year.

So here's to another end of the year post. Tbh, the beginning of the year seems so far away. I can only remember the big achievements which is me finally graduating with my undergrad, working hard to find a job after to college to save up for Japan, and looking for a job in Japan and finding one. Those were my biggest achievements and I can't help but look back fondly on this year.

I know there were several downs. I remember missing Japan like crazy, having so much trouble adjusting with my parents, even now. And, the mess that happened with J and the drama with the office ladies at work.

However, regardless of this I believe this year was overall a good year. I am so happy that I worked hard to achieve my goal of living in Japan and it will soon be a reality.

I was able to do more shoots this year, which was what I wanted. Again, my parents not supporting my modeling hindered it but I'm still proud of the shoots I did and how much I've grown from when I first started modeling. And so blessed with talented photographers I worked with and will be working with.

I've met a lot of shit people, but I've also met some really great people who I genuinely care about. And that definitely outweighs the bad far more. I've made some good connections, and even when the thing with J turned sour I'm still grateful for what I have learned from the experience and how I was able to learn more about myself as a person because of it.

I've made some amazing memories this year. Going on a road trip with my younger sister, seeing Blink-182, Metal Night at the Observatory was amazing, probably one of my favorite nights. And a big highlight of the year was meeting my friend Thomas for the first time and hanging out. Things definitely became better with myself once I quit.

Some things I've learned during the year of 2015 and some advice for 2016:
Always trust your gut instinct. If you have a feeling, it is probably right. Do not ignore it. Give yourself more credit and trust yourself. Listen to that initial gut instinct and I promise you, you will be glad you did.
Some people are just shit, and unfortunately nothing can change that. It sucks, but some people are just petty and hateful. Some people don't need an excuse to be a horrible human being, they just are. So don't be so hung up over it, don't let it get to you, and just brush it off. They aren't worth it. 
You are not stupid for trying to see the good in a person. It's unfortunate that being loving, trusting, and giving people the benefit of the doubt is seen as weak. It is not. For you to be able to give any bit of yourself to someone and trust them despite the chances of them being able to break you, is strong. But once you see the person for how they really are be strong enough to walk away. Whether it's a romantic relationship or a friendship, toxic relationships will eat you away. 
Learn to value yourself more. I've said this before and I'll say it again, you're worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. Did you not learn this last yearDo not settle. I understand you have problems, everyone does. Your problems do not make you any less of a person and you still deserve the best that's for you. You're getting better, and it's great but my love, I promise you if you just loved yourself a bit more and put a bit more value on yourself, you'd be so much happier. 
Do not be so hard on yourself. You're bound to make mistakes. Again, that doesn't mean you're any less of a person. Sometimes you will make stupid decisions, don't give yourself so much crap. Learn from it. And sometimes shitty things will happen and it has nothing to do with your actions. It doesn't always have to be your fault so let it go, and learn. You giving yourself so much shit doesn't do anything. You learning from it does.

I am confident that I'm going to make the most out of this upcoming year. Big changes are coming and I know it's going to be exciting but also hard. But I'm going to keep my head up and work hard to live the life I want and become more of the person I want to be.

Friday, December 25, 2015

last christmas.

Christmas this year was actually pretty lovely. Since it was going to our last Christmas together as a family we decided to try to do fun things, well my older sister did. I'm moving to Japan, my little sister is going to grad school and my older sister is trying to get a place of her own with her husband. It's crazy how quickly time goes by, and how quickly we each begin our lives.

As usual, we celebrated on Christmas eve with a Christmas eve dinner, afterwards we went to go see the lights on Thoroughbred which is a street that the houses go all out with decorating their homes. It wasn't as good as it used to be but it was still nice.

We ended up coming home after seeing the lights and playing UNO for a good while, my parents really got into it lol. Since my parents sleep early we decided to open our presents. This was the first time in years we had presents thanks to my older sister wanting to do a Secret Santa. It was really nice.

We ended up going to sleep pretty early. I stayed up to talk to my friend Frosting though, his birthday was Christmas Day and I wanted to wish him a happy birthday and talk to him because we haven't really talked since I quit working.

Christmas morning was nice, me and my younger sister came down to my older sister and her husband in the kitchen, and my mom cooking papas con chorizo which is one of my favorite dishes.

We made gingerbread cookies that my older sister bought at Disneyland, they were Mickey gingerbread cookies. It was pretty sloppy with the frosting but it turned out cute overall and delicious.

My parents went to church and me and my little sister stayed home and watched a movie, The Longest Ride. We randomly stumbled across it, and it ended up being a beautiful movie.

It was good family time. Something we hadn't had during the holidays in a good while. This was probably one of the best Christmases we had together. A good way to end the year.

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

escape.





Saturday, December 20th
Part II

After the shoot we were going out to LA so I could show Thomas my favorite spot in SoCal: the Griffith Observatory. I fell in love with it ever since my friend Derek took me and I firmly believe this is a place everyone who visits LA should go to. Not only do you see the Hollywood sign but you also get to see the view of downtown LA. It's really beautiful.

We first ate indian food when we got to LA because we were starving. The food was amazing, it was just a random pick but it was a good choice. Afterwards we went to the observatory.

It was unfortunately raining so when we first got there we couldn't see downtown LA because of the fog but it was still nice. We went inside the observatory so he could see all the cool space stuff. I love space things so it was really fun for me.

Afterward we saw everything inside we were about to head out but I wanted to see if we could try to see the view again and it was a good call. The fog cleared up and Thomas was able to see downtown LA and see the skyline in all it's glory. He loved it.

Afterwards we headed back to Ontario and chilled at his hotel for a bit watching metalcore videos as he drank beer. It was a good day.

Monday, December 21, 2015

I don't mind you under my skin, I'll let the bad parts in.









Saturday, December 20th
Part I


Saturday I woke up and went to Thomas's hotel. He wanted to shoot something chill so we just shot in his hotel room. The wardrobe was simple as well, cropped shirt, underwear, and a snapback. He wanted to shoot in band stuff so I brought the coldrain shirt he got me for a late birthday present.

I was really happy to shoot with Thomas and do a shoot a bit different than what I usually do. His work is awesome, especially his video stuff so check it out!

Instagram: @thomashelvenstine
Vimeo: T H • V I S U A L S

Sunday, December 20, 2015

hipster joints & metalcore concerts.






Friday, December 19, 2015

My friend, Thomas came out to California to visit. We were going to do a shoot and go to a concert of Coldrain, it was also a plus that Northlane and Volumes were performing.

We left my house around 12:30pm to go to Orange County and chill there for a bit before the concert began. I wanted to take him to the Anaheim Packing District because it looked cool and heard it had some good food.

Sure enough, it looked awesome and pretty hipster. We went to the Hammer bar and had a couple drinks. The drinks tasted great, we were going to drink more but decided to get some food. We ate some lemon pepper chicken wings which were a tad oily but so flavorful!

And of course, we needed to get the famous popbar popsicles. It was definitely worth the hype. The bars were so milky and thick. I had green tea with waffle cone and I forgot what else, the girl suggested it would taste like a green tea kitkat and she was right, it was bomb.

After we explored the place a bit more me and Thomas decided to go to the venue and just chill. He wanted to see if he could get a chance to talk to one of his friends in the band before the show and sure enough he did. It was nice to see how happy he was catching up with his friend.

We talked for a bit and he even offered to get us on the guest list but unfortunately is was full. It was alright because the venue was small anyways. After they caught up we went back to my truck and sat at the back of it while Thomas smoked and we just talked.

It was eventually time for the show and it was great. The local band that first opened wasn't my cup of tea but the rest of the bands were great. Coldrain sounded amazing as always and I was glad that the crowd was feeling them.

We watched the other bands and bought some merchandise and Thomas caught up with more friends. We actually ended up leaving a bit early because we were tired and hungry so we went to In-N-Out. I needed Thomas to try In-N-Out, it's very Californian.

Sure enough, he really liked it. It's either a hit or miss with In-N-Out with people. It's mostly a hit though. We ended up driving home listening to coldrain's new album on the way back.

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Finding Neverland.





Fo several years I wanted to watch Finding Neverland but never did because my older sister told me I wouldn't like it because it wasn't going to be like Peter Pan 2003 and that I'd probably find it boring. Maybe she would have been right, since I was younger then, but then again, at that time I loved movies like The Color Purple.

Anyways, I finally watched it. And I'll admit that it probably is one of my favorite movies. The reason for this is because it's magical. No, it not magical like Peter Pan but it has it's own sort of magic and shows that our world can be just as magical as Neverland.

This movie is about how JM Barrie came to make Neverland, and it means so much more to know the concept behind it and gives you a bigger appreciation for Peter Pan as a whole.

Peter Davies: "This is absurd. He's just a dog."
J.M. Barrie: "Porthos dreams of being a bear, and you want to shatter those dreams by saying he's just a dog? What a horrible candle-snuffing word. That's like saying, 'He can't climb that mountain, he's just a man', or 'That's not a diamond, it's just a rock.' Just." 
Finding Neverland 

Saturday, December 12, 2015

The last graduate.



Today was my baby sis's graduation ceremony. She technically doesn't graduate till spring but she decided to walk in the winter so she could be with her friends and so I could see her walk since I wouldn't be here in the spring.

She graduated with cum laude with a BS in Kinesiology. I am so proud of her and her boyfriend Jesse. After the ceremony we went to BJs, both of the families and ate together. It was fun.

Time is going by quickly and the more time goes by, the more everybody seems to be going on with their own lives. Many things are coming, big changes are happening, I'm just looking forward to what's in store.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Last day of work.

Yesterday was my last day at work. It was pretty bittersweet. I met some really cool people at my job that I really care about but there was also a lot of shit from the office ladies in the back. It all comes down to pettiness and jealousy but these women are 30+ and they act like high school girls.

I know it's because they have nothing better to do with their time and they hate their lives so they need to talk shit on other people and at first I didn't let it get to me but there is only so much negativity a person can take, especially at their work environment.

Also, of course the J situation wasn't helping. He would act bipolar, sometimes chill and sometimes a complete dick. It was annoying to deal with at work. And my good friend Tina also left because of problems with people there was I was pretty much alone.

I was lucky to have enough money saved up for Japan since I was saving ever since I came back from Japan so money isn't an issue thankfully. I talked to my friends and family about it and decided to quit.

I met the new girls and they were so fun and nice and sweet. They wanted me to stay and I kinda wanted to stay too but I knew I would regret it. I needed to move on.

I wonder what the next few months have in store for me, hopefully good things. I know the time will go by quickly. Getting rid of the negativity and only keeping positive shit in my life.

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Affliction Metal Night.





My friend Mauricio wanted to take me to a metal concert with some of his favorite bands. I'm always down to listen to new bands and it's been a while since I've been to a concert.

It was probably one of the best concerts I've been to. I loved all the bands except for Suffokate to be honest. My favorite was probably As Blood Runs Black and of course Suicide Silence.

I forgot how much I loved going to shows. The atmosphere is always so much fun, and makes me get in a good mood. I love seeing people enjoy the music and moshing and just doing stupid shit.

And the bands sounded amazing live. I honestly forgot how much I loved going to metal shows. This really was a good night.

And of course, In N Out made it even better.

Friday, December 4, 2015

See you soon 日本!


Now for the news, those of you on Instagram already know but, I have accepted a teaching job in Japan for next spring. I am really excited to be going back.

The teaching job will be in Chichibu in Saitama prefecture, very much 田舎 where I have to drive and everything but I don't mind. I've lived the city life, and though I did enjoy it I feel like it would be nice to see another side to Japan. Whether I'll like it or not, who knows but it's an experience that I'm sure I'll learn a lot from.

It's not too far from Tokyo so I'll be able to come out and chill with friends on the weekends as well.

I hope that by living in the more rural area my Japanese will improve. It has decreased so much because I haven't been using it or studying. I need to make sure it doesn't go away.

Anyways, I will be leaving March 29th and will be in Tokyo for a few days to meet up with friend and what not before I get settled into Saitama. I'm extremely excited.

I also put in my 2 weeks notice at work and my last day is Wednesday. I am going to spend the remainder of my time with friends and family and being around positive people because honestly, who knows when I'll be back.

Still need to catch you guys up with several things but this was the biggest.
See you soon 日本!

Thursday, December 3, 2015

loner.



I don't want to be your cigarette 
I don't want to be your ashtray 
I don't want to be your door mat 
'Don't want to be ignored 
All o' sudden you're not into me
And maybe it's not deliberate 
And I know you never asked me 
I just gotta put it out there
I don't put myself out there
Usually I stay tucked away

Cause I was a loner until I met you 
And I let you in after all the persuasion 
Mind games, manipulations. 

That's why I'd rather be a loner 
Yeah I'd rather be alone 
I don't even want to know ya 
I don't want to be known 
Cause I'd rather be a loner 
I'd much rather be alone 
Baby it was nice to know ya 
Packing up and leaving home.

Some songs say the things you couldn't.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Things to look forward to.

On Friday I went out to Orange County to do a shoot for my love, Tia. She is getting her portfolio ready to apply to different fashion colleges and wanted me to model one of her pieces. I'm so happy because I haven't been able to model any of her clothes in forever because of me when I was in Japan, school, and now work. But I was lucky enough to be able to do this one.

It was more work than play, I drove out just for the shoot and ate afterwards with her and her family, and met her friend Tina who was modeling her other clothes but we didn't get to catch up much or anything.  But I did get to catch up with her parents which was nice.

Her mom asked if I wanted to sleep over so I wouldn't have to drive back but I had work in the morning so I had to decline. Tia will be done with school soon though so I will be seeing her on her winter break.

In other news, next week is my birthday. I don't know if I want to do anything. I wanted to go to an art exhibit but my sisters might not be able to go due to conflict of schedules. We'll see. My friends want to do something but I don't like celebrating birthdays, hype leads to disappointment in my opinion.

Good news though, my friend Thomas is coming out to California from Colorado so we can see coldrain in December. And I have a new friend at work who also likes metal and wants to take me to concerts. The first week of December we are going to a concert already, I'm pretty excited. 

So many things to catch up on, but I'll save it for other posts. All that needs to be known right now is that there are some bumps, but for the most part I'm heading in the right direction and I have things to look forward to.







Thursday, November 19, 2015

When did the diamonds leave your bones?


I needed a pick me up again, and I got it.

I went to Six Feet Under tattoo parlor to see when I can schedule a touch up for my tattoos. During the process, I got talked into contemplating getting a tattoo before I leave to Japan (that will be another post.) I know, it's crazy but money wise it makes sense.

He remembered me from when I came in to get my first tattoo. We talked about several things besides tattoos but what I remembered what he told me was:
"don't let anyone hold you back. you have the world at your fingertips. you're a beautiful and intelligent young lady, you can do whatever you want. it's other people that tell you otherwise"
I'll admit, that really got to me. I probably would have started to tear up but I kept my composure, didn't want him to realize how fucked up I really was lol.

Tattoos always make me feel better. I literally got out of work feeling like shit randomly and remembered I wanted to go to the parlor to get information. Little did I know, that I would have a great conversation that would leave me feeling inspired and confident.

You need pick me ups every now and then. You need to meet new people who've been places and think differently. Being stuck in the same place with the same kind of people really takes a tole on your mindset.

I know I said it before but it's true. It's all about mindset, I need to keep my head up. Remind myself that this is temporary and that I have big things coming ahead.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

she sleeps beneath the surface, consorting with the serpents.




This Halloween was a good Halloween. I decided to do something last minute. Literally, the day before so I decided to pick an easy costume. 

I ended up being a student from the House of Slytherin. I really loved my costume lol. My older sister was R2D2 and her husband was Luke Skywalker.

Me, my older sister, and her husband went to have dinner at a Korean/Mexican fusion restaurant. It was so good. After dinner, we went to a bar/lounge called Walter's at downtown Claremont to meet my sister's friends. 

The place was huge. There were several areas to sit and talk and there was a dance floor with a dj and an area with a live band. We stayed with the live band, the atmosphere was much better.

I was really enjoying the music and dancing along to the beat. The band played funk / hip hop and sounded great. My friend Frosting came to meet us and it made the night even better. We stayed till late. Me and Frosting and my sister went different ways.

We went to eat Del Taco before we went to another place in Pomona but we ended up chillin and eating in the car that we didn't feel like going to another bar so we decided to go to our spot in the mountains. 

It was really nice, we got a good spot that had an amazing view of the city lights. We listened to music and took a nap because we were pretty tired haha. Eventually he took me back home before it got any later.

It was a simple night, but it was a good one.

Saturday, October 24, 2015

i've got thick skin & an elastic heart.



Photography by mmmtangerine

So my loves, needless to say, things didn't work out with J. He ended up being a possessive, insecure, lying asshole. I mean, we're still cool at work but dating wise, fuck that lol. 

It's funny because when things don't work out with guys the girl tends to put the blame on herself, wondering things like, "What did I do wrong?", "Was I not good enough?", "Maybe if I did this instead?"

At first I seriously thought that shit, and I wondered how I got myself into this shitty situation with a guy that lied for no reason other than just because he could. It was suppose to be easy and he made it complicated. He was the first guy that I liked in a while which was what bothered me the most. But there were so many red flags that I shouldn't have ignored.

It's been a cool minute since we've ended things, and I'm getting back into the groove of things. Trying to keep myself occupied and being focused on myself. 

Surprisingly, even though shit didn't end too well with J, I'm not as jaded as I was before. I'm just brushing it off and learning from it and actually being positive because there was nothing I could've done differently. I was up front and honest from beginning to end. I've realized I've come a long way.

I did a shoot today with @mmmtangerine, which made me feel amazing to be in my own skin. I'm constantly battling with myself, I am extremely insecure about my body, my face, everything. But I shoot to feel good about myself. Sometimes it's good to be reminded you don't need anyone's validation other than your own.

And I want it and I wanted it bad
But there were so many red flags
Now another one bites the dust
And let's be clear, I trust no one
You did not break me
I'm still fighting for peace

Sunday, October 18, 2015

One of the better ones.



Yesterday after work I hung out with Tina and Frosting. We went to eat dinner at BJs and caught up on what was going on in life, mostly love lives lol. We decided we didn't want the night to end so we wanted to go out to a bar.

We all went home to get ready and Frosting came to pick me up at my house and then we went to get Tina. We pre-gamed in the car by buying liquor at a gas station close by. Since Frosting was driving me and Tina were the only ones drinking.

We drove to downtown Upland were we chilled in the car and drank out drinks and talked some more. We went to the bar which was pretty chill. It had pool tables and a dance floor so you could dance if you wanted to or just chill.

We ended up dancing. They played good music. It was fun just dancing with Frosting and Tina. This was something both me and Tina needed. We needed to go out and have fun and get our mind of things and feel good about ourselves.

Afterwards we dropped Tina off home because she was tired. I didn't want to go home yet, so Frosting took me to the mountain we went to last time. It was definitely better this time. We talked about personal shit and just enjoyed the view with music playing in the background.

It was a great choice to go there. It felt like the perfect way to end the night. This night was one of the better ones.

Friday, October 16, 2015

all about mindset.

It's been a while since I'd seen any of my Orange County friends and lately the only people I've been hanging out with are friends from work. Which is cool, they're cool people. But the thing is, people from the IE tend to lack goals, dreams, ambitions, or sometimes even an education. Most of the people from the IE stay in the IE, and they don't have a problem with it.

That's fine, everyone has their own thing when it comes to what they want out of life but I know I wouldn't be satisfied staying here. Most of the time people applaud the fact that I want to do something different and go to Japan, other however think me going to Japan is a fantasy kinda thing.

So it was nice to meet up with my friend Jenny again out in Orange County and remind myself what I'm aiming for. And to remind myself that it's all about the mindset of the people you hang out with that ends up playing a factor in shaping your own.

My hometown has this effect of leaving me feeling like I'm in a rut. But luckily, everything is going on track. I'm going out here and there with friends and still am able to save a good amount of money for Japan.

I hung out with Jenny last weekend. It was nice. We ate sushi and talked for several hours about our lives. I miss Orange County. I miss my uni life (though definitely not the work load).

Work can be draining at times, but for the most part I enjoy it and am lucky it's so chill. I'm slowly getting closer to my goals. Before we know it, it's going to be November. Crazy.



Friday, September 25, 2015

Yesterday was fun. I currently don't have a car so one of my friends from work said he could take me home. We were waiting for his brother to get off when we decided to go out to a bar and chill. We pre-gamed at their places and then we went to a bar close by.

We got 3 pitchers and just chilled, talked, and drank. It reminded me of the good times in Japan. I haven't done something like this since I've been back from Japan so it was nice because I prefer these outings.

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Lack of color.

After work, I felt like doing something. Dressing up a bit and doing something chill. My friend Frosting wanted to do something too, so we debated to go somewhere. There was a chance I was going to hang out with J so it wasn't sure, but I owed Frosting for removing the tint off my windows for free after getting a lame ass fix-it ticket and I wanted to do something so we went to eat.

Frosting is a good listener, he's very mellow. He always listens to my shit, whether it's stuff with my family or how I'm feeling out of place in California. I chatted most of the time and he just listened. After dinner, J was still preoccupied so I decided I'd hang out with him another time.

I had some time to kill, so Frosting asked me if I wanted to go to the mountains. We ended up going to this place that reminded me of the place Derek took me before I left to Japan. It wasn't as pretty, but it was nice and secluded at the top of a mountain and you got a better view of the stars.

Several people had parked along the mountain; couples, friends, all chillin' and enjoying the view. Some smoking, walking around, cuddling, it was nice.

I have to admit though, since coming back from Japan when I look at views or look at stars I can't help but feel lonely. Frosting took me there to forget about my thoughts but instead they came rushing at me more than ever.

I am unhappy with where I am in life, and though I am working hard to get to where I want to be. It's discouraging at times and I'm not confident.

Athough it was something nice and something I love doing, unfortunately not even the night drive, the mountains, the city lights, and all the stars in the sky could take away the shitty feeling. We stayed there a bit, but not too long. And I headed back home listening to some Death Cab For Cutie and Bright Eyes.

Friday, September 4, 2015

September 3rd, 2015

“What happens when people open their hearts?"
"They get better.”

― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Summer Nights.

Friday night I went with J and some friends to Buffalo Wild Wings. It was pretty chill, the guys were watching football and we were talking about traveling and life. We drank some beer and ate and then headed to our coworker's house.

The guys smoked and me and our coworker's wife drank and just chilled in the garage. It was warm that day, so the night felt good, typical summer night.

We headed to J's place around midnight. We rolled down the windows and turned on the radio, and Budapest came on. The feeling of driving with the windows down on a warm summer night and singing along with the radio with a group of friends is probably one of the best feelings ever.

I stayed with J for another hour so and then got home around 2am. I had to get up at 5am the next day, but it was a good night.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

But for you, I'd leave it all.

It's crazy that it's already the end of August, time goes by super fast. Even more so when you're working than when you're in school. I haven't been doing much besides working, getting closer to my co-workers and hanging out with that one co-worker, J. That's what I'm going to refer to him as now.

It was actually his birthday this past Friday and he had a party on Saturday that I went to with my friend, Frosting. It's a nickname I gave him lol. It was more of a kickback so it was pretty chill, besides bitchy girls but what's new?

I am excited it's going to be fall soon! I'm waiting for the leaves to start turning colors, the pumpkin flavored everything, and the cooler weather. It's been hot and humid in California lately, reminds me of Japan.

Speaking of, I will soon be applying to jobs for Japan. Kinda nervous/stressful/exciting, but mostly the first two lol. And on that note, I leave you with this feel good song I've had on repeat this summer.

Give me one good reason why I should never make a change,
 And baby if you hold me then all of this will go away.

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Pleasant Surprise II

It's funny how after I wrote that post about my co-worker we ended up hanging out after work and just chillin' at his place. It turns out, we both want the same thing which is, we aren't aiming for anything and we are just going with the flow of things.

We aren't looking for anything serious but if it turns out that way we aren't going to push it away either. It kinda reminds me of how it was with M, but with M it was a tad different.

I do like hanging out with my co-worker though, I like it when I can be myself and they are affectionate with no strings attached. It sounds weird but as long as I have someone I can chill with, be myself with, get personal, and have fun; that's all I really need. 

I definitely wasn't expecting this, but it's definitely nice.

Sunday, August 2, 2015

ROAD TRIP • Hidden Beauties, Golden Fields, & A Sky Full Of Stars



Road Trip Day 1, Part IV
Friday July 8th

Me and Daydee headed towards the place we were going to be staying at. It was close to the Sequoia National Park and on our way to the next destination so it was perfect, thank you Airbnb!

On the way there we were mostly faced with golden and brown mountains but came across a small stream and decided to take photos of it because it looked so pretty! The best part of road trips is the things you find along the way, not even the destinations to be honest, those are just a plus.

After the stream we went to a more secluded area where we where the only ones driving on the road. Is was a super tiny road that was extremely windy tucked in between golden fields. Honestly, the photos don't do it justice. It was a beautiful view, and part of my favorite things we saw on the road.

It was extremely secluded, and we passed several cows which looked so pretty with shiny coats and were so clean with plenty of room to walk around compared to the cows you see in the suburbs in southern California where they are dirty, cramped, and smell so bad. Really made me think about a lot.

Anyways, the place we were headed at was extremely secluded and there were lots of wild animals, we saw wild turkeys! By the time we got there is was getting dark, the place was really tucked in the mountains. Our host was kind enough to also make us dinner so we dropped of our stuff and ate and talked about several things.

She told us about the different animals in the area, they have several mountain lions and even Siberian boars which are as big as cars! No exaggeration, they are around the size of cows with razor sharp tusks.

Our host was of Cherokee indian descent so we learned a bit about her and the people who live there. It's crazy just how different each city is in California. She said there are either really chill people or extremist, such as supremacists or extremist muslims. I'll admit it made me a tad uncomfortable but was good to know.

After dinner, she told us we could go on the hammocks outside and see the millions of stars. I thought she was exaggerating a bit, but she was not.

When the sun set completely the sky slowly became filled with stars. I've never seen so many stars in my life, and I'll admit, it moved me quite a bit. I love stars and that view is something I will never forget. We were able to see several constellations and I stayed out there for a good hour or so, looking at the stars and petting her cat Simba (who was adorable btw).

I even stayed after my sister went in to take a shower. I just chilled there, listened to music, and looked at the sky. Coldplay was definitely perfect for this occasion.

I'll never forget how many stars I saw in the sky that night, and how it made me feel. Honestly, the view of the stars was my favorite thing out of the whole road trip.

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Happy August.

I didn't even realize it was August until I looked at the date to write this post. Life has been pretty decent for the most part, I'm getting used to my new job. I work at a car dealership, and at first it was really hard for me to get used to because the work environment is mostly filled with guys. I've forgotten how straightforward Western guys are tbh.

Since coming back from Japan I haven't had much interaction with people other than my family, classmates, and co-workers at uni. Coming home to a large Hispanic population and working at a male dominated field definitely made me reevaluate several things.

I enjoy my work more now, and know how to joke with the guys now and also how to put them in their place when they are being inappropriate. And my female co-workers are fun to talk to, and definitely help make the day go by faster.

Ironically, I am actually talking to a co-worker here and there with occasional outings. He is really cute, very much my type, and tall (missed tall guys lol). I actually noticed him when I came in for my second interview and he told me that's when he noticed me as well. But, I don't think it is going to go anywhere because I'm not sure if I'm feeling it. He's cool to hang out with, but that's all I'm getting so far.

Can someone say, deja vu of my dating experience at my first year at uni in Irvine? Yeah, that's a mouthful, and very much true.

My younger sister says that I have forgotten how to be wooed, but she also tells me not to settle. Maybe I have, I don't know. I'm just used to being on my own, and I kinda really like it but seeing a cute guy every now and then doesn't hurt either. But also, no point to get invested when I'm leaving to Japan next year.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

ROAD TRIP • Crescent Meadow













Road Trip Day 1, Part III
Friday, July 8th 

After going to Moro Rock, we ended up going to the meadow. It was probably my favorite thing in the sequoia park. The meadow was basically like in Bambi, so it was pretty awesome. We also saw 2 baby bears which was cool, but a tad scary because we didn't see momma bear and we didn't want to die lol.

We also saw chipmunks, squirrels, and woodpeckers. Lots of cute wild animals.

The trail was, I believe 2 miles, and it was in a loop so it was pretty straightforward. The forest and the meadow was beautiful, I loved seeing the giant sequoias in the forest with all the green.

The trail ended up taking longer than we thought so we weren't able to see General Sherman, but we saw the tunnel tree which was pretty awesome.

Afterwards we headed back to the main area of the park and headed to our airbnb place since she was making dinner for us and we were starving. Also, because we wanted to leave before it got dark.

So we headed back onto the road to our first bed and breakfast!