Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Happy N Y E.

I started my New Years goals a tad early and started working out. Woke up today sore and in pain, it was the best feeling ever. Not even being sarcastic lol. Soreness is my motivation.

Anyways, it's New Years Eve and I'm chillin' in my sister's room watching The Proposal, love this movie and it's been forever since I've seen it. I really am enjoying staying in and relaxing. Especially since it has been so cold recently! There was a lovely fall of snow flurries :] 

Anywho, I decided to write a post looking back on this year.

This year started out great, with me spending New Years in Nagoya with my best friend Lyy. I also had many firsts in Japan and became more comfortable in my skin as the year progressed. The friends I made were awesome, and more than ever I became more sure of my life choices.

So many things that I thought would never happen ending up happening. Even me thinking back on it now I still think it was crazy, but it was amazing.

My life ended up becoming not so good once I came back from Japan. I had a lot of problems with my family and trying to adjust, but I'm taking it one step at a time and I hope it will slowly get better.

Brightside, I got to reconnect with some of my friends, Hopy and Jenn ♡

I already mentioned my New Year goals in my last post, and I am working on them now. I know this year is not going to be easy, but I am going to make the most of it to get to where I want to be. 

Time always seems to fly by, so hopefully this year will be the same and it will be a productive one.

One thing I learned from 2014: You're worth way more than you give yourself credit for.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Post Teeth Extraction & New Years.

So, needless to say, break has not been fun so far. The teeth extraction really impacted me more than I thought it would. I was throwing up non-stop the first day due to the anesthesia. I couldn't stomach anything which led to me not being able to take any of my medication as well so it didn't help with the pain. My mom called the doctor and my doctor said I would have to hold off on medication until I felt better because it could make the nausea worse.

I ended up being nauseous for several days, 6 to be exact. It was hard for me to eat anything because I'm not used to taking medication either. Didn't help my mom decided to take us to Mexico for my grandma's birthday. I already get carsick but with the state I was in, I felt so sick the whole time. I was unable to enjoy myself and neither was my family because I couldn't eat the food they wanted to eat due to the extraction.

My mom realized it was her mistake to force me along. Glad she acknowledged it but it wasn't till we were back at home. But the last day wasn't too bad, only the morning I was feeling extremely nauseous but afterwards, the trip home I felt fine.

We stopped by Palm Desert because my mom and little sis wanted to go shopping. It was very beautiful. Palm Desert seriously reminded me of Laguna Beach or something but just in the desert. There was so much to do, and I would love to stop by there sometime in the future.

It's crazy it's going to be New Years Eve tomorrow. I was planning on going with Tia and her family but after the teeth extraction and Mexico trip, I'm not feeling up for it. I still get nauseous here and there so I just want to wait till I'm 100% better to do anything and just relax at home.

I'm thinking for this New Years I am going to stay at home, chillin' and marathoning tv shows or movies. That sounds so nice.

As for New Years resolutions? Same old, same old. They sound like typical resolutions or goals but this is the stuff I am aiming for:

Work out more. The classic. I want to take advantage of the ARC since it's my last year at UCI and I am going to be living on campus starting next quarter. Also, more than ever I want to get the body I had when I came back from Japan but just toned. My little sister is motivating me more than ever. 
Build up my style more. I already know what kind of style I want. Just need to build my closet, this goes hand in hand with working out more as cropped shirts are my favorite and I want a toned belly. I probably am not going to buy any clothes because I don't have the money for that, but lookbooks and whatnot are going to be my best friend so I will know what I want when I do get the chance to buy clothes. Also, hair and makeup falls within this, which leads to my next. 
Mess around with makeup more. I've always loved the smokey eye makeup and contouring and whatnot but never played around with it. It seems so hard, but I want to mess with it more to express my style more. I always give up when I try to do anything new with makeup but I'm going to try really hard not to this time. 
Do more photoshoots. This actually ties in with the first three, mostly the working out one. I haven't been able to do any shoots since I don't have my car anymore. Probably will be limited when I am living on campus as well, but this will be the perfect time to work hard on my body and mess around with makeup for my shoots. Even if I can't do any shoots now, I want to get myself prepared for when I have a car and will be able to. 
Study Japanese more. I want to my Japanese to become better. I'm forgetting the little I learned in Japan. So I will try to study more consistently and seriously. 
Save up for Japan. Of course, the big whammy. I am aiming to return to Japan in 2016. We will see if that happens. Making that money is the most important but a lot will be going to bills. I will try not to stress and just save the little I can. Japan is the long term goal, and I am slowly working on some stuff now for this goal.

I am motivated more than ever to work on these goals and be productive. New year, new quarter, new classes, new living situation, going to try to hard to make the most of it. All these goals were actually goals in general, not just for New Years.

The problem is I can be so lazy and unmotivated but I'm going to try my best to stay motivated.

I find that logging the progress of my goals does this. So I will probably be keeping track of my diet/workout routine and plan, lookbook for my style inspiration, tumblr/instagram for my makeup inspiration as well as photoshoot inspiration. Or maybe even pintrest for all. We'll see.

Let's get working!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Bye Bye to my Second Family.

Friday, December 19th, 2014

Today was the day I finished classes, work, and moved out of Tia's house. It was also the last day I would be hanging out with Tia before I moved back home.

I picked her up at her school which was surprisingly in the ghetto of Santa Ana. It's been forever since I've been in such an uneasy place, okay well actually K-town in LA was sketchy as fuck too.

Anywho, we went to Daiso after I picked her up. She need to get some gifts for her friends and I needed to turn in an application.

Afterwards we picked up a few other job applications and then went to Curry House to eat and fill in the apps.

I was pretty chill. We just talked and ate and caught up. Even though we lived together I was always busy with school and work and she was busy non-stop with school so we only really talked around dinner time with her family.

After eating, we walked around the shopping center and got some more job apps. I need another job.

When we were finished and were heading back to the car, a guy stopped us in the parking lot. And old asian guy to be exact. He asked us for directions to a freeway so we didn't think anything of it, especially since he had a thick accent we thought he was lost. Turns out, he tried hitting on us. Asking us where we lived and what school we go to and that he was looking for friends and he would want to invite us for coffee and invite friends.

We hurried and scurried away, he was so creepy. He looked around 40 years old and tried to say he was 26. And Tia is underage!! Creep.

We then went to Cha for Tea as we waited for the traffic to die down a bit and talked some more.

We went back home where we had dinner with her mom and she surprised me with a Christmas gift. It was a Kate Spade wallet. I usually don't care for brand things but I really liked it because it was a gift from them.

I hugged them and afterwards me and Tia chilled in my room. She did my nails and we talked some more. I was so happy because I usually have dark nails because I feel like I look weird with light colors but these looked so pretty!

It was getting late so I had to leave soon. So I said goodbye to her family. They told me if I ever needed anything I can always ask them, and that they will miss me. They even invited me to come visit them on New Years.

I honestly love her family, and cannot thank them enough for what they've done for me. They are like a second family to me.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Winter Break.

I finished my last final today. This quarter is almost over for me, tomorrow is my last day of work and then I will be going home for winter break.

I actually should be packing up my room now, but I just want to relax for a bit before I have to start doing stuff. Tomorrow I am also picking up Tia from school and we are hanging out before I go back home. I am excited to do something fun!

It's nothing to exciting tbh, just lunch or something but still, the last time I did anything was when I went out with Jenn. I just want to do something.

I am sad I am leaving Tia's house though. Her family feels like a second family to me and I cannot repay them for what they have done for me. I got them some gifts for Christmas and thank you cards as well but no words can express my gratitude towards them.

So happy this quarter is over! Kinda excited to move into my new place next quarter. But for now, I'll take it one step at a time. Which is getting my wisdom teeth removed. Fun! lol

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

I'm pretty sure I sound like a hippie.

I wonder why people are so concerned with other people's decisions? When my coworkers try to get my opinion about other people's life decisions, chances are they are going to getting a hippie response.

I personally don't care what other people do with their lives as long as they are not hurting anyone. Sure, somethings I may not understand but I try my best not to give them crap about it because everyone is different. I'm not a saint, and of course some things get the best me of me where I end up judging people but I try to catch myself afterwards and remind myself to shut up because it's their life and not mine.

Well, a lot of the time my co-workers talk and sometimes they say something judgey about someone's actions and come to me for validation. Usually, it ends up not being what they wanted to hear and it ends with an awkward silence. Here are two instances:

One. The other day I was sitting in the lounge as I was waiting for my next shift to begin. One of my co-workers was on her laptop and then does a sigh of disgust and looks at me and says, "why do pregnant women take nude photos?" with disapproval in her tone. While looking at my laptop I replied, "well, some women do not believe that nudity is a sexual thing but more of a natural part of life, and has been sexualized due to society views so when they take photos of themselves nude and pregnant it is more of a sensual thing rather than a sexual one" I looked up from my laptop and she just stared at me and went back to looking at hers. She didn't say anything else after that. It was pretty awkward. 
Two. Today, a coworker and her friend were in the lounge. Since it's finals week it is pretty dead at work. They were talking about a friend who just had a baby and they said the baby is so cute but the boyfriend has a tattoo on his face of an axe. They started judging him because of the tattoo he had on his face. I was on the computer, finishing up a final when my coworker asks me, "how would you feel if your boyfriend had an axe tattoo on his face?" I was continued typing without turning around and responded, "it's his body, he can do whatever he wants" then there was the awkward silence. I could tell that they probably exchanged glances at each other thinking I was crazy, because this coworker knows I don't mind face tattoos and gives me crap for it all the time. She just responded, "oh, that's true" after the long awkward pause and the silence continued until they geared it towards the baby and gushed about how cute he was.

I don't know, this stuff bothers me. Clearly, if I am writing a blog post on it. But I wish more people could be chill and just live their lives and not care about anyone else's. Haha okay, I definitely sound like a hippie now.

I don't know, just some random rant. Flower power <insert flower emoji here> lol

Sunday, December 7, 2014

It's starting to feel like the holidays.

Definitely is feeling like the holidays. You know why? Harry Potter is playing.
It always feels like it's Christmas when Harry Potter is playing.
Finals start Thursday for me.
So excited for this quarter to be over!

12 more days till break.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Little Box.

My pleasant life in California is not so pleasant anymore. I have been too lazy to write about this but after reading my "Tokyo Daydreams" post and talking about how nice my life is California was at the time made me realize how much my life has changed since that post.

My life has become much more complicated since the beginning of November.

I am even more limited than before when it comes to my freedom, before it was because of my parents but since I moved out because school started it wasn't too bad and only money hindered me. But now, my parents have restricted my freedom again.

My dad crashed my car, and it was pretty bad. Luckily, he is safe. Not so lucky for me, he crashed it so bad they cannot repair it. Or more like, the insurance doesn't want to because it's not worth it.

Because of this, I've been using my little sister's car to go to school. I was lucky my little sister was nice enough to let me take it for when I have classes which is Monday-Friday. But I have to come back for weekends.

She now takes me mom's car or has her bf take her since she lives 20 minutes away from home. Luckily, because my mom was going to have me move back in and commute 1 hour and 30 minutes every day. Which isn't too bad, but trust me, a train ride and car ride are completely different.

And, spending that time with my mom would completely hinder our relationship even more so I'm grateful.

But, because I come home weekends I cannot hang out with my friends. And during the week I am busy with school and work.

I don't have friends in my hometown, and even if I did my mom wouldn't let me go out. I don't know, she has this idea that if I go out on the weekends when I am home that this shows I am going out like crazy on the weekends over in Irvine. It's difficult.

She also went as far as having my sister count the miles on the car to make sure I am not going anywhere besides school and back to Tia's house. Which I already knew she was going to do, she tries to be sneaky about things but I know how she works. I mean, I've lived with her my whole life.

Living with strict parents is hard. So the last time I've gone out with anyone was with Jenn. I am going to try to hang out with some friends before I have to go home for break but with work and finals coming up, I don't know. Plus not being able to drive anywhere because of the mileage counting.

We'll see how it goes. At least in January I will be living on campus, I think then I will have more freedom. But even then, I don't want to go out much because I'm trying to save money to return to Japan.

I'll look at this in a positive light, I'm saving more money.

Monday, December 1, 2014

Oh, hello December.
Lovely how quickly time passes.

19 days till this quarter is over.